Tomorrow is the day of my 3 month "check-up." I'm not sure what to expect. Another series of biopsies? Nothing? More time? I just don't know. And I don't even have any expectations right now, which is an odd feeling. All of my other visits has been preceded with me bracing myself for something. Maybe bad news, maybe biopsies, any other thing. This visit is one where I have no idea what to expect. I'm in unchartered waters right now in this battle.
I will say that I have two moles I don't like (more than the rest, of course). I try not to spend too much time in the mirror. I've started a walk away policy with myself that I can only stand there for a short time and then I'm done. No matter what. And I don't go back for at least an hour. It has helped reduce some paranoia but not all.
I'm going tomorrow with an open mind and no expectations, but I'm still scared. That's probably because I don't know what to expect or what to prepare for.
you will be in my thoughts today... hope everything works out for the best... keep us posted!
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